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Wednesday, April 30, 2008 ♥18:54
IM NOT OKEH,K!
SO STOP ASKING ME IF IM OKEH!

im sick of play pretend.
im sick of trying to be okeh when im not!
im just sick of it all okeh?
leave me alone a little while.

just now.
i didnt pay attention during maths.
my fingers just feel like writing.
so i wrote and wrote and wrote
until i cnt write anymore.



hey.you know i hate parting with you.right?
and still.you did it.
why?
just for my happiness. just to no hurt your bestfriend again?
so you sacrifice our friendship that just stand strong before
and now all that were left were ashes and memories.
im pissed.
im dissapointed.
im sad.
im (fill in the blanks).
it took 3 years to have such close friendship ans it takes less than 3 minutes to
watch it all fall down crashing.
you actually have the heart to do that?
and you just made it all sound so simple.
like it wont affect me so much.
like hey.
you know me inside out.
and i know you inside out.
why sacrifice?
you told me to forget all about you.
erase everything that have got to do with you.
i did and i will.
but you think its that easy?
like erasing a pencil mark of a paper?
hey.
its not okeh?
why?
because you're my Guardian Angel.
you are part of my life and you;re reason why im still living
and having hope,faith and believe.
you just give me the strength to carry on with my life.
and in the end.
i got back with my romeo.
who happens to be your best friend?
and you dont want him to go bleeding at heart.
indeed.
he is your bestfriend.
he knows we're close since like forever.
he have and will learn to accept it.
but no.
you burn our 'relationship'
as in being best of friends just to see him happy.
while you?
me?
you have watch me fall
you help me rise back.
and stand on my feet
you have heard my cries
you have witness my happiness and sorrow
you are one soul who knows the real me.
and now.
you're making your way out of my life
and all im trying to do is to stop you.
im not that strong.
because my powers i've drained from all the tears i cried.
yes i cried.
i bet you dont even care.
and all im trying to say is please stay?
if not as a brother then as a friend
but dont leaave me alone.
im not going to play pretend anymore.
im not okeh.
and you know it.
so stop worrying about me if you are.
im going to miss you.
you and your calls.
you and your jokes.
you and your listening ear.
you and me going crazy together.
now.
all that is left is you and me in memory.
imalone. again.

im gonna cry.
cry my lungs out.
until i have no more reason to cry.
now,leave me alone.

when what you hope is not what you get
you cant expect me to be OK when im not.
im not attracting audiences to the drama of my life.
i am just sick of play pretend and be someone i know im not.


now i need SHAFIQ.
i dunnoe.
but i need him more than ever.
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